by Tracey Kandohla
Kate McCann has admitted that she will try to find it in her heart to forgive whoever kidnapped her daughter Madeleine.
In a moving interview Kate, 42, a devout Catholic, says: 'It is hard to say but I would like to hope I could forgive. It would be a bit difficult. I just want to know why they have taken her.
'I always pray for the family. Most of the prayers are centred on Madeleine. But I pray for the people who have taken her and the people who know what has happened to her.'
Kate and her husband Gerry, 41, were among 450 people taking part in a fun run in London's Hyde Park yesterday to raise funds for the charity Missing People.
During the 10km run the couple wore tops bearing a picture of their daughter smiling and the words 'Don't give up on me'.
In the interview broadcast on Radio 2's Good Morning Sunday this weekend, Kate, from Rothley, Leicestershire, tells how she takes sanctuary alone in the village's Sacred Heart church.
She says: 'I've got the key to the church. It's kindly been given to me. It's a bit of a sanctuary - a refuge - and I can go and speak out, when no one else is there, and get it all off my chest really.'
She believes God is looking after and protecting six-year-old Maddie, who vanished from a holiday apartment in Praia da Luz, Portugal, in May 2007 just days before her fourth birthday.
She adds: 'There are times I have got angry with God but my faith has sustained me and it has got stronger.'
She said having a child snatched was 'the worst thing that could ever happen to a parent. The pain is just incredible and I cannot help but worry about her.
'The wounds are less raw now and the pain doesn't go away but I am a lot stronger than I was a year ago.'
She says enduring her third Mother's Day without her eldest child is painful and 'a constant reminder that one of my babies isn't with me'.
But she vows to 'get through it like any other day'. She adds: 'I am still Madeleine's mum and always will be.
'I just want to bring her back into the warmth and love of our family.'
Kate was expected to attend a church service in the village to mark Mothering Sunday. She is due to be given a bunch of daffodils there by her five-year-old twins Sean and Amelie.
She adds: 'The twins are really positive and keep us going. I have a lot of hope that Madeleine is still alive but the difficult task is trying to find her.'
She describes Maddie as 'an amazing little character' who has 'loads of energy, is really funny and quite knowing. I want everyone to meet her'.
Asked if she had a message for mothers who are facing similar heartache, she says: 'Dig deep and just keep hoping. Surround yourself with positive people and don't give up.'
in Daily Mail, 14.03.2010